Confession: Worst mom ever!!

Yesterday morning was hard. I cried all morning long. I felt horrible! It was early, and the kids were bugging Nic, who was still sleeping. I went to get them out of her room, set Stone behind me, and was holding Adelyn back while she was trying to go back in. I reached behind the door to lock it, and shut it. I didn’t realize that, in the 10 seconds it took to reach in, Stone had crawled and reached forward. I shut his finger in the door. It was stuck, and the door was locked! “OH MY GOD! OPENTHEDOOROPENTHEDOOROPENTHEDOOR”. I know it didn’t take her long to open it back up, but it felt like forever. an eternity. I didn’t look at his finger at first, I just held him and started crying with him. After a few seconds I looked down, and his pinky looked deformed. It was the tip of his pinky finger. The very tip was normal, but right where that first bend is was flat, like paper thin, and not all the way around. I can’t explain it, but it did not look normal. Which made me cry harder. I though I crushed his little finger. After a few minutes he started to calm down, and I hurried to get breakfast in their bellies, I wanted to take him to the ER. My sister came out and looked at it, told me I was kind of over reacting, that it looks normal now and that he’d be fine. It’s not really swollen, but the underside is bruised, he can move it and touch it without making a fuss. Thank God!

so serious

I still feel like shit though!


One Year.